2010 was a weird year. So much went on in my life.

My sister graduated from high school and left for college across the country. I moved 3,000 miles away from my friends in Maryland and even farther from my best friend in New York. I had to learn to adjust to a different environment and deal with coldness, unfriendliness and ultimately loneliness. I also met a new friend along the way, who I couldn’t imagine going through it without.

In 2010, my situation forced me to adapt to being self-reliant. I learned a lot about myself because I reflected more and relied on myself more. This is not to say that it was all a good thing, because as a result I became more and more introverted, something I have never been. In my younger years I was always spirited, exuberant, extroverted and loud, even obnoxiously so. I still can be these things with people who I am close with, but in 2010 I developed a new facet to my personality. I am more reserved and find it harder to converse with people…something so foreign to me considering I’ve grown up socializing with people of all ages and maturities. I’ve also become lazier and less motivated, something that scares me even more since I’ve always been pretty disciplined (probably from ballet). Now that I’ve taken note of my changing behavior, I realize that change can be a product of environment and that sometimes it is for good and sometimes not. The most important thing that I’ve thought about a lot in the past few days is that I can be whatever I want to be.It is humanly possible for me to mold my future into what I want it to be, no matter how bad the present time seems or how discouraged I become. This is the chief motivation for my 2011 resolution.

MY 2011 NEW YEARS RESOLUTION:

In 2011 I am going to focus more on myself- but with a different energy and approach. I want to generate more positive, productive energy and channel it into making myself the best person I can be- for myself, friends, family and strangers alike. By taking small steps here and there I can make a big step to moving forward from my present circumstances- and this I find inspiring. 

WHAT’S YOUR NEW YEARS RESOLUTION FOR 2011?

iwillloveyouakt:

new year, new outlook on life, new adventures and experiences, new me.

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